I Wish I Could Just Die

I thought you would never leave me

I thought you would never lie,

You said you two were nothing,

I wish I could just die.

How could you play me this way?

Why would you not tell me instead?

You should had set me free and just let me be!

How could you live with yourself?

How could you look at her face and tell her that you love her? 

When you told me you only like me.

Why drag me along, when you know you were wrong?

You told me you miss me, you told me that you cared.

I believed you because I was scared.

Afraid to loose my lover, not knowing it was all over.

Where was she all this time, when I was sure you were mine?

You promised her eternity, but you could not give me an alternative.

Why would you mark me this way, 

you have left a stain that shames my name.

Because my love for you was so strong.

I thought I could never hate you but I guess I was wrong,

All I can do now is sit and analyze 

And hope one day I would realize.

That I did not deserve this and you should have told me.

Today I move on with a heart made of stone,

All I can say I wish I had known.

Crier ~ Unfragment Broken

I step out and try to make everything in the day worth my while,
But as soon as I step back in my room, I burst into tears and cry.
Holding onto this heart just causes me more and more pain,
Just take it away and let me die.

Ending it all, ending all, so I don’t have to feel the pain.
Doing no more, doing no more, so you don’t have to say so.
Crying all the time so I can just let everything spill out,
Feeling useless hurts, but who would know?

Being forgotten is just another symptom when I’m all alone, and when I cry,
I just fall asleep right after to pass my life away.
And so I don’t have to listen to everyone’s insults when I do something wrong,
I lock myself up and stay.

Lock it away, lock it away, so I don’t have to hear you say anything to me.
Closing my eyes, closing my eyes, so I don’t have to see anything that is hurtful.
Sitting alone, sitting alone, so I don’t hurt anyone else around me.
When I’m alone, how is life ever joyful?

Seeing as though I can’t do anything right, why do I even try?
Everyone just brushes me off, then makes fun of me when I try.
Even climbing up the stairs is hard when I can’t feel anything,
When I fall back down and hurt myself, all I can do is cry.

No one is there, no one is there, to help me back up again.
Flooding the room, flooding the room, with all my tears of anger and sadness.
Dying alone, dying alone, I can’t do anything but lay here and die alone.
If only I could have had one moment of bliss.

You Are Not Alone

A strange had given me this beautiful poem and I really like it, so I decided to post it here:

I may not stand beside you
but you are not alone
I am among others with you
in heart, spirit and thought
neither time nor distance
will count to any relevance
you will never be alone
look to your heart
there I am to be found
look to your thoughts
know I am waiting
soon I shall be at your side
to hold your hand
to listen to you
for now please remember
I may not stand beside you
but you are not alone

Annabel Lee ~ Edgar Allan Poe

It was many and many a year ago,

In a kingdom by the sea,

That a maiden there lived whom you may know

By the name of ANNABEL LEE;

And this maiden she lived with no other thought

Than to love and be loved by me.

I was a child and she was a child,

In this kingdom by the sea;

But we loved with a love that was more than love-

I and my Annabel Lee;

With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven

Coveted her and me.

And this was the reason that, long ago,

In this kingdom by the sea,

A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling

My beautiful Annabel Lee;

So that her highborn kinsman came

And bore her away from me,

To shut her up in a sepulchre

In this kingdom by the sea.

The angels, not half so happy in heaven,

Went envying her and me-

Yes!- that was the reason (as all men know,

In this kingdom by the sea)

That the wind came out of the cloud by night,

Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.

But our love it was stronger by far than the love

Of those who were older than we-

Of many far wiser than we-

And neither the angels in heaven above,

Nor the demons down under the sea,

Can ever dissever my soul from the soul

Of the beautiful Annabel Lee.

For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams

Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;

And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes

Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;

And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side

Of my darling- my darling- my life and my bride,

In the sepulchre there by the sea,

In her tomb by the sounding sea